Yay & Booooo!!!! Tue 8/14/12

I hit my next mini goal last Friday!  159.2  Hooooray!!!!!!!!!  Then my girlfriend from PA and her two daughters came to a week's visit and over the weekend.... Well, let's just say that portion control doesn't do much for brownies, mac & cheese, ice cream, cookies, cheeseburgers, chips, dip, chips, dip, chips and, dip.  So today I weighed in at 161.2.  Now there is no way that I ate over 6,000 calories extra to gain two pounds but try to tell my body that.  It's going to go back home to the 160s, dig it's heals in and flip me the bird while I try and drag it back out to the 150s. 

Why why why??? do I ask myself when taking two brownies instead of one and then cutting them in half to make ice cream sandwhiches out of.  One of the kids saw me doing that and said "Wow!, that's really smart!"  mmhmm  smart as a fat-ass fox I say.  ;)

A proud 5 for Friday & 1s for the rest!  A toast to 5!!!  We will be there again.  My goal is to see that 159 by Thursday!!! 

It's Soooooo Haaaaarrrrdddddd!!!! 8/9/12

What do you do when life is so hard you just can't get the words out to any support system for help? In my mind, who wants to hear that S H _ T?!  The curse of being a super happy and positive person is that when the poop hits the fan and you're down lower than the dumps everyone knows it and asks "What's wrong?"  UGH!!!!!!!  Leave me alone!  If you push too hard, you'll get the answer and it WON'T be what you want to hear!  That's what happened with my buddy system cousin today.  She pushed and prodded to find out why.  Ya know what's worse than feeling like you want to crawl in a box until it all goes away?, Answer:  Feeling like you want to crawl in a box until it all goes away but you also have to send an email with the subject line of "that was really btichy of me... I'm sorry" and then expound on it! 

Today is a negative 0.  Oh yeah, I gained 1 pound and 2 ozs.  Probably from the handfuls of baking chocolate chips I devoured because that's the only thing in the house remotely close to "bad" food.  Or, because I'm riddled with stress and not sleeping and maybe there is something to stress causing weight to not leave the body. 

It's Working! and So am I !!! 8/7/12

Between the buddy system with my cousin and the Biggest Weight Loss Challenge at our local rec center I have met my second mini goal of 5 lbs. and will have broken the evil 160s this week!!  I turned 50 in May and decided I was going to "ROCK" my fifties.  This means losing the weight that I've blogged off and on about for the past three years and toning up.  The thing is, there's something about 160 lbs that my body refuses to let go of.  NOT KIDDING!  For the past month I've been flirting with 159 but that God Foresaken 160 will not break.  I've decided if it doesn't break this week, I'll find the lightest appendage and least necessary of them all to lop off on Sunday.  All I need is about 2 ozs maybe 3 to be safe. 

This week's task:  Find 3 oz. appendage on body and ready myself for lopping on Sunday